[There's a faint smile, a little pained around her eyes, but she doesn't rebuff him for the question ]
The Capitol was a beautiful place...[And her voice catches here and makes a few false starts, her hands tremble but then her voice goes firm] T-that was made possible by the suffering of many people, some of whom had no voices to speak or rebel with, and some, like me, who did. As a whole, Panem was beautiful but it had so many problems. I--I like to think I can still... see the beauty as much as the problems.
[Her gaze drops as she seems to try to find a way to put it. She seems to have a problem with it ]
Served by everyone but Avoxes are slaves without voices. Literally. [She seems a little duller, having settled on stating facts ] The Capitol takes from the Districts and redistributes to the Districts while taking a great portion for themselves.
I don't understand how you fit into this. You came from a District, you grew up in a District, but it doesn't sound as if you were a slave in the Capitol.
On occasion, they allow Districters to come to the Capitol, to work and to show their generosity. [She plays with her skirt, tracing the lace pattern] I was able to come because I had a relation in the Capitol, a distant aunt, and she sponsored my sister and I. I worked, my sister went to school with the expectation of one day being able to work.
I left in the middle of what we all hoped was the last battle of the war. In the Capitol itself. [Her lips lift into a small smile] I can only hope we succeeded.
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[Her lips press thin and she continues to look at him for a few more moments, uncertain ]
I suppose I just don't--[She shakes her head a little and brushes back her hair] Not all suffering leads to anger, you know. Sometimes it's just sadness.
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Date: 2017-10-02 06:22 pm (UTC)Can you also see the pain and the harshness as well as the good things? You haven't told me much about this place you're from.
[Not that she has to, and he won't ask directly, but he's noticed that it's something she hasn't really gone into detail about.]
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Date: 2017-10-02 07:00 pm (UTC)The Capitol was a beautiful place...[And her voice catches here and makes a few false starts, her hands tremble but then her voice goes firm] T-that was made possible by the suffering of many people, some of whom had no voices to speak or rebel with, and some, like me, who did. As a whole, Panem was beautiful but it had so many problems. I--I like to think I can still... see the beauty as much as the problems.
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Date: 2017-10-02 07:02 pm (UTC)[He guesses, trying to puzzle it out.]
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Date: 2017-10-02 07:14 pm (UTC)Served by everyone but Avoxes are slaves without voices. Literally. [She seems a little duller, having settled on stating facts ] The Capitol takes from the Districts and redistributes to the Districts while taking a great portion for themselves.
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Date: 2017-10-02 07:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-10-02 07:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-10-02 07:44 pm (UTC)[He taps a finger on the coffee table.]
Not a slave, but not one of the elite.
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Date: 2017-10-02 07:55 pm (UTC)Exactly. They liked me but it was always a conditional offer.
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Date: 2017-10-23 02:16 am (UTC)[He says it lightly, but is pretty curious about how she'll answer.]
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Date: 2017-10-23 06:09 am (UTC)[She looks at him, unsure] Does it matter?
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Date: 2017-10-23 11:36 am (UTC)[He waves a hand, dismissing his own question.]
No, you don't have to answer; no.
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Date: 2017-10-23 05:46 pm (UTC)I suppose I just don't--[She shakes her head a little and brushes back her hair] Not all suffering leads to anger, you know. Sometimes it's just sadness.